Thursday, September 2, 2010

Lifestyles of the Fatigued Yet Restless

I'm signed in as Andy .. but this is Daisy..

Normal wake up time for us is around 5 AM but lately, 4 AM seems more normal. I don't do much besides groggily getting up, making my way to the kitchen, and packing a lunch for Andy but he reads his morning news (mostly sports, some WSJ, some Deseret News) and takes a shower.

Well, today I decided to get up and make him my green machine wannabe drink (see www.skinnyisalwaysin.blogspot.com for recipe) and then after making his lunch, and going downstairs to move our tandem parked cars, I came back thinking....

My body is awake but my eyes are asleep....
My mind is awake but my I might need more sleep...

What do I do now? Do I go to sleep? Start scripture studying? Go work out? Cut the watermelon? Make myself lunch? Put in a load of laundry? Fold the laundry from two days ago? Send some work related e-mails? Call a friend on the east coast? Write a letter? Browse the internet? And then it hit me... I would blog about how utterly tired I am yet seemingly restless, I don't do anything productive except blog about how unproductive I am.

Why is it we always have so much to do yet we're unable to just go about and do it? Lately, I feel like the list is never ending but yet I am only slowly making my way down the list, at a snail's pace, trying to prioritize. I don't like the word "stress," but I think that is what it is. I justify that I am the rabbit, not the hare... and again, it's because I'm in a transition mode (just started working on a client again with a 45 minute commute and typical 7 pm end of work day) but I really admire moms and dads who have so much to do, and are able to do it all! Times like this.. I think, what am I going to do when we have kids and the sleep is even less? *gulp

But then.... I remember that.. "the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them." (Nephi 3:7) As long as I remember that... nothing is impossible. The Lord loves us and wants us to succeed. He doesn't throw challenges at our way to make it harder for no reason, to stress us out for no reason. We grow from challenges, and we are better prepared. I suppose the early mornings help to prepare us for less sleep in the future and we can slowly transition into it. Nothing is impossible...nothing that is in accordance with the Lord's will.

2 comments:

Jessica said...

so true! we can do anything! i mean if i can juggle nursing school, two jobs, and my calling at the same time....we can do it.

i must say when Justin gets up at 4 am, I'm still sound asleep in bed. your the better wife than me.

SupaFlowaPowa said...

you left us two comments but andy said.. post that one, she wrote more! hehehe no i'm not better wife, just newer wife? hahaha